Yesterday was hard. 3yrs since you left me. They say time heals but I wish I could heal from your loss but I know I never will. My heart aches for you, your voice and your bear hugs. The grief still creeps up and catches me unaware a smell, a sight, a sound, a date even and bang suddenly the grief is so raw it takes my breath away. I know we're not religious but I do hope that you know how much I love you now as alzheimers took you long before you were truly gone. Gone but never forgotten 💔

YOU DON’T JUST LOSE SOMEONE ONCE You lose them over and over, sometimes in the same day. When the loss, momentarily forgotten, creeps up, and attacks you from behind. Fresh waves of grief as the realisation hits home, they are gone. Again. You don’t just lose someone once, you lose them every time you open your eyes to a new dawn, and as you awaken, so does your memory, so does the jolting bolt of lightning that rips into your heart, they are gone. Again. Losing someone is a journey, not a one-off. There is no end to the loss, there is only a learned skill on how to stay afloat, when it washes over. Be kind to those who are sailing this stormy sea, they have a journey ahead of them, and a daily shock to the system each time they realise, they are gone, Again. You don’t just lose someone once, you lose them every day, for a lifetime. Credit: Donna Ashworth

I've missed you so much this month, I've seen so many people in the street that have reminded me of you. I've seen you many times in my dreams too. I really miss your voice 😢 its been hard this month xx